The Scribbler lives!

So it’s been a hot minute since I’ve really updated my blog, minus a few random ramblings here and there and if I’m being honest, I really miss blogging! I’ve had a pretty crazy year so far and I have so much to fill everyone in on but I’m going to do it in bits and pieces because it’s going to take some time. Off the top of my head I can tell you I went to Europe, my kids are growing and doing all kinds of cool and funny shit, I went back on medication for my ADHD for the first time since I was like 17-18, I was diagnosed with a gross thing called Endometriosis, I mean this year has been something else!

The most important thing is I’m back and I renewed my domain with a new fresh name! I was going by The Super Scribbler under the domain katlynblair.com because thescribbler.ca was unavailable back then. LOW AND BEHOLD! It’s available now, I snagged it, it’s miiiiine.

*Cuts Ribbon*

Welcome to the new and improved blog, hold onto your panties ya’ll, I’m back!

A letter to my past.

Dearest little Katlyn,

I know you feel alienated because you have ADHD. You’ve been excluded, humiliated, and patronized by some of your own Teachers because you’re considered a “problem” or a “disruption”. You’re not a disruption, you’re just different. You don’t need to change who you are for them to be able to teach, they need to change the way they teach for you to be able to learn. Teachers are always going to put you in a tiny box with a bunch of other kids who are nothing like you and they are going to expect you to conform. I’m here to tell you that you will try to conform many times over your school years and you will fail. The reason you fail isn’t because there’s something tragically wrong with you like you will tell yourself as you lay awake at night, you will fail because you’re not meant to conform, you’re just different and you learn in a different way. 

I want you to know that fitting in and having boyfriends is not as important as you think it is. Being socially accepted by your peers is not important right now. You don’t need to treat people badly to make yourself feel better, stop that, okay? It doesn’t make you look cool, it makes you a bully. There’s a reason you feel bad afterwards, that’s because it’s wrong and I’m telling you now, it’s going to happen to you and it will be the hardest thing you’ll ever go through.

Which brings me to my third plea, please don’t let people walk on you, Katlyn. It doesn’t have to be an “if you can’t beat ’em join ’em” situation. If people treat you badly stop giving them the time of day, your time is valuable and so are you. Don’t waste it on people who couldn’t give two shits about you. You will not still be friends with them in 5 years, trust me on that. 

You also don’t need to try drugs, I’ll just go ahead and let you know it’s not that great. Dodge that bullet. Experience isn’t everything! 

Lastly, if all else fails because you’ll never read this and you’ll do literally everything I said not to, you can rest easy knowing that your life will turn out amazing. You’re going to grow up quickly because you’re going to suddenly be super responsible for someone really important but I won’t say who! But you are going to be strong, beautiful, and kind. You’re going to learn from all the things you did wrong and you’re going to accept that you will never fit the mold and you’re going to grow to love that about yourself. You’ll realize there are people in your life who love that about you as well. 

Ps. Eyebrows=good. Shaving them=BAD 

P.s.s. Leave your hair alone.

Peace out Sailor scout!

Future Katlyn

Changes on The Horizon

I’ve taken a position on the forum I’ve worked for since 2013 which will be pretty time consuming but I am looking forward to helping the site progress. I know not everyone in the community will be pleased about the decision to promote me but in terms of longevity and experience I was the most reasonable option and I certainly wasn’t going to reject the opportunity to help. I look at this site like my baby and they say it takes a village to raise a child, so I am hoping I will have enough support from my staff team and the community that we can make a big difference! Though, I’m hoping my best friend who has been working for the site since 2014, will be promoted to the same position eventually/someday too. I feel like as a team we are much more motivated, effective, and have the ability to get things done FASTER, since we’d be sharing the workload.

Aside from those changes I’ve challenged myself to do more reading, writing, and art. Just things that are mentally stimulating and gratifying for me. So I’ve read two books and am halfway through my third, since January 6th. I’ve started writing some fanfiction because why not, and I’ve been messing around with Adobe Illustrator on my ipad! It’s going to be a really long Winter so doing these things is really keeping me sane.

They say your frontal lobe isn’t fully developed until you’re 25 and guess what? I’m going to be 25 in March! Happy Birthday (and fully developed frontal lobe!) to me! I’m low-key hoping Hubby buys me a new kindle since the one I have doesn’t have a built in light, making night time reading impossible.

Have a good Monday folks! 🙂

Facebook Hiatus, Quitting Smoking, Wreck This Journal, and more!

So I’ll start off with the bad news and then counter it with some good news! The bad news is that I am leaving Facebook for an undetermined amount of time. Sorry to those hoping for some juicy gossip, there is no delicious reason why besides the fact that I want to take some time away from Facebook chaos to spend with my family while my husband is on Summer Leave. He will be home for 31 days and I want to make the best of it. Facebook tends to stress me out, I’d rather go outside and plant something than sit inside brooding over internet drama. So that’s what I’m going to do! That being said, I’ll probably return sooner than I plan but who knows. I am hoping to at least dedicate a few Facebook free weeks to my family and my house.

Now for some good news! I did quit smoking. It’s reeeeeally hard but I am trying my best to hang in there. When I think about it too much it bothers me so I am trying to push it from my mind most of the time. I really need to quit for my family, but mostly for myself. I want more years on this beautiful planet. I don’t want to shorten my life with something as silly as smoking. So I need to rally up all my will power and cut it out.

Finally, the most exciting part of my week! I am doing “wreck this journal” it’s a super fun, hilarious, creative, series by Keri Smith. She has done a few different versions of Wreck This Journal. I am hoping to try them all. So far I am having tons of fun with it. 🙂 The concept is adorable and really forces you to step out of your comfort zone and just WRECK the journal. Like taking it with you in the shower, or rolling it down a hill, for example 😛 Here are some of the pictures so far, I might continue posting them here but I’ll more than likely stick to posting them on Instagram.

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The Year of The Artist

Happy 2015! I have been having such terrible writer’s block and in addition to that zero exciting events happening in my life to even inspire me to write. However, 2015 is here and I will be pushing myself to do better. I’d like to try and fork out at least one entry a week if I can manage. I’ve been tapping into my inner artsy fartsy side and doing some digital art/sketches and also a little photography with my new iPad, JotPro Stylus, and Nikon D3300. I’ve been trying to challenge myself artistically so I’ve tried out different types of drawing, different programs, and different styles. As for photography, I am still learning how to use the camera but it’s a work in progress. Here are a few examples of that and at the end I will link to my flickr where you can find my art dump and photography album in full high quality resolution 🙂

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And you can find the rest of my stuff here:
https://www.flickr.com/photos/127713438@N04/sets/

I’ll be back next week or sooner!

When you visit our home..

When you open up the door to our home, you’ll likely have to give a little extra shove to get it open. That’s because the doorway is a plethora of shoes for every season, just kicked off in a hurry as we got home. After being away all day or for the night, nothing feels better than coming home.

Once you step inside, if you look straight ahead there’s a wall with a painted picture on a slab of wood that says “Home Sweet Home” with a little red cottage on it, and a sweet home it truly is. To your left you’ll see a fairly vacant hallway, vacant aside from the little white and green potty that sits directly across from the bathroom. We’re potty training a toddler, so forgive us if it seems a little bit of an odd place for a potty. Down that hall you will also find three bedrooms. The boys’, The nursery, and ours. This is where we sleep, it is comfort epitomized. You may stumble upon the bathroom on your hallway travels as well. It’s very small, very cramped, but it’s ours. Home to countless bubble baths filled with shriekingly happy children, or exhausted Mom, or Dad, who just got in from a run.

If you backtrack down the hall you will find yourself in an open concept dining room and living room, with a kitchen barely separated. You might trip over a toy or two as you enter into our living space. Where countless hours are spent playing with toys, watching cartoons, playing video games, rocking babies, writing blogs, and laughing with one another. In the dining room you will probably trip over toys too! This is where we sit at the table and fill our bellies with the food that provides us energy for our days of play. In the kitchen, you will almost definitely see a counter absolutely riddled with empty coffee cups. You’d think that’s because we need the caffeine to cope with the chaos that is our life, but actually I think we just thoroughly enjoy a good cup of Coffee from Tim Horton’s. The sink is probably full of dishes because frankly, we’d rather spend time with each other, doing things that make us happy, then sit miserable over a sink washing dishes. Though eventually my husband will give in and do them about once a day. If you try make your way from the kitchen to the basement, I will stop you. That’s the point of no return. If you go down there, you may get lost and never find your way back!

If you visit us, and you tour our home. You might judge by the shoes barricading the door, or the potty in the hall, or the toys scattered carelessly around the house, or the coffee cups sprinkled about the kitchen. You might think we are lazy and don’t bother to tidy up after our children. But our home is lived in. We have three children and to them, to us, this is our nest, our sanctuary, and we adore it.

What kind of Mother will you be when your children are adults?

They are grown, they are independent, they may live on their own, marry, have their own children. So naturally your relationship with your kids will change and your role in their life will change. The fact is, they still need us as adults, but in a different way. Below are a list of things I vow to my children as adults, in regards to the Mother I will be then. (Keep in mind these are written from recent personal experience and may not relate to anyone in your life, but still are things that matter!)

1) My Children owe me nothing.
My children did not ask to be brought into this world and they did not ask to be raised by me or anyone for that matter. I am the one who chose to clothe and feed them and spend money on them during their life thus far. I vow to never make my children feel like they owe me anything. I’ll never use the line “I clothed and fed you for x amount of years!” or “Think of all the money I have spent on you in your life time and you can’t do this one thing for me!?” or “After all I have done for you growing up!” Your children do not OWE you anything. I’m not saying acknowledgement and gratitude is bad. I’m saying this should never be used as a tool to guilt, manipulate, or shame your children to get your own way.

2) I will let them move on.
If my sons become husbands some day. I will let them put that woman/man before me without guilting them or acting like I am entitled to more affection than their partner just because I am their Mother. My son chose that person to spend the rest of his life with and I will respect that because I love my children unconditionally. I can take pride in knowing I raised them to make their partner their priority.

3) I will not be jealous of in-laws.
From my experience, it’s quite common for a daughter to remain close to their Mother in their adult years while her husband might not be as close to his own Mother. He might lean towards his wife’s family a bit more because his wife is #1 to him, and that is a good thing. I will just hope that family loves and respects him and embraces him as a true family member. My Grandma always told me this old saying which I have found to be incredibly accurate in my life: “A son is a son ’til he takes him a wife. A daughters a daughter the rest of her life.”

4) My children will always be my priority.
This is one thing that applies now and forever. My children will always, always, come before myself. Their needs will come before my own because I love than more than I love myself. If I am down to my last dollar and one of my sons is in need, I will give it to him. I will always drop everything to be there for them when they need me because ultimately we should never stop being a Mom to them just because they are adults.

5) I will respect them.
I will treat my sons not as children, but as adult equals. I will respect them, their home, their spouse, their children, and any decisions they make as long as it’s not extremely harmful to them. If I know something will hurt them, I won’t do it out of respect for them. Parents do not automatically earn respect just because we gave birth to them. Again it goes back to them not owing us anything. I will respect my children in every way so that they might respect me back.

6) I will not over step my boundaries.
If I have advice to offer, I will only offer it where it’s wanted. I won’t step on toes to get the results I want. Whether that’s regarding their love life, or even how they raise their own children. I need to let them make their own decisions and sometimes that will mean they learn the hard way, but I’ll rest easy knowing I let them make their own choices and their own mistakes.

7) I will celebrate their accomplishments.
I will not miss anything (Unless I shit the bucket and die of course lol). Birthdays, Christmas, Thanksgiving, promotion at work, birth of a child, baby shower, wedding, engagements, new occupation/career paths, or just anything my child is proud of. I will always celebrate with them so that they know I care about things that make them happy and that I am always going to be proud of them.

8) I will make sure that they know they are loved.
I never want my children to question my love for them. If I died tomorrow, I’d want them to know how much they mean to me, so I vow to always show them, not just through words, but actions. I don’t want to leave even a slight trace of doubt in their minds about this.

9) I will respect their space.
As much as I want them to know I love them and to be involved in their lives. I also want them to know that their privacy is safe and I will not stick my foot in the door if they try to close it. I won’t suffocate them or harass them with phone calls every day to see if they’re still alive. I won’t guilt them for not coming to see me often if they can’t, because that’s their decision, which I will respect, as stated above. Also sometimes you just CAN’T see people as much as you’d like to, have you seen gas prices? Shiiiit.

10) I will encourage them to put their family first.
By family.. I mean their partner, children, their brothers/sisters. Basically anyone but myself. I think it’s very important for my two sons to remain close and always be there for each other. Be kind to one another, be good uncles and fathers, and stick together through thick and thin. Put each other, and their family (wife/husband, kids) before people like myself who cannot be there 24/7.

That all being said, these are things I just personally hold close to me through my own experiences as a wife and how I wish people in my life would treat their children. Maybe these will hit home for you, maybe they won’t. But I hope either way anyone reading can take something from this and possibly apply it to their own life somehow.