Soulmates

This morning I got up to get a drink of water and then head back to bed. On my way to the kitchen I noticed my husband had bought me a coffee for when I woke up, little things like that remind me of how kind he truly is. I went to lay back in bed and couldn’t fall back asleep because I was thinking about how far we had come in the nearly 10 years we’ve been together. When I met him, I strongly felt I was jaded. I had been through short fling after short fling, and even my “serious” relationships had never lasted longer than 6-8 months. I was young but I was also scared. I remember laying in bed at night thinking there was something wrong with me because I always ended perfectly fine relationships. I was constantly chasing the high of a new relationship, once the spark went out, I ran. By 18 years old, I felt like a seasoned relationship escapist. I had friends in High School who I knew would marry the guy they had been dating since middle school. Meanwhile I thought I’d never be with someone long enough or trust someone enough, to get married at all.

The handful of times I could see a future with someone, they let me down in big ways. It really changed the way I viewed relationships and certainly contributed to the hurt I caused others who came after. In a seemingly normal relationship, I’d run at the first sign of trouble. I didn’t know how to love and maybe in some way thought I didn’t deserve it.

Dan came along when I had sworn off relationships, fresh out of yet another heartbreak. How he broke down those walls with such ease still remains a mystery to me. We met at a party at his brother’s house and we connected immediately. Despite my efforts to never see him again, I somehow found myself making room in my heart for him at any opportunity given. Things moved fast between us, unlike anything I have ever experienced. I loved him right away. When we found out I was pregnant I was terrified but I never for a second believed I was alone. He could have ran, he could have forfeited any and all responsibility, but instead he stayed and we fell deeper in love.

If someone had told me when things went sour with my ex, that my next relationship would wind up in marriage, I would have scoffed. By that point I truly believed I was meant to be alone and didn’t deserve to share my life with someone. It’s been almost 10 years, we have 3 beautiful children. I can’t say it has been perfect, but that has been mostly due to me, my old ways, and my old fears. Despite my efforts to sabotage myself, he has stuck by my side unlike anyone from my past and I realize now that my past relationships had to fall apart, for this one to fall into place.

A Gif Story: Injury Edition

AHHHHH! Story time, I’m sitting here listening to The Last Podcast on The Left and felt like I should post something here and it’s been one hell of a week already so here we goooo!
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I was extremely sick a few days ago out of no where. Puking, fever, cold sweats, it was nasty and I felt disgusting. I didn’t want to show my face in public and spent the worst of it in my bed binge watching shows on Netflix in between bathroom trips to throw up everything I attempted to eat. I also couldn’t sleep because my body was in such agony, so I was mentally AND physically exhausted.
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The day after it passed I was feeling like a million bucks in comparison to the day before, so I was on the ball and getting my shit done around the house.  I was crushing it!

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I was walking into my spare room to light some incense, drop some essential oil into my burner, and pick out a book. I had just finished cleaning the house and was 100% ready to zen the fuck out.
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As I stepped through the doorway something happened, something we all dread, something inevitable, something that has happened to the best and worst of us.
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My baby toe stubbed on the door frame! However, not only did it stub, it straight up CAUGHT on the door frame and the entirety of the rest of my body continued moving forward. Inertia 101 guys, objects in motion stay in motion, unless unbalanced forces interfere, my unbalanced force was that god damn baby toe catching on the door frame.
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I face-planted onto the floor and spent the next 5 minutes writhing, still on the floor, in pain. I was pretty sure I heard something crack in my foot.
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So yeah, it swelled up almost immediately. By that night it was black and blue across the top of my foot, leading from that toe. By the next day it was a worse looking mangled mess.
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I can’t walk on it, so I’m limping. I can’t put my boots on so I haven’t left the house. I am going crazy ya’ll!!
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But on the plus side, I have 2 weeks and 2 days in since I quit smoking.
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I’m okay.. really..

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Come at me 2018!

Well folks, another year has come and gone and I can’t say I’m sad to see it go. When I reflect on 2017 there’s little I recall fondly. My personal life wasn’t terrible but the world as a whole was hurting and as an empath, I spent a lot of my time feeling sad on the behalf of others. I did get to experience some personal growth and challenged myself to do new and intimidating things. I did so with success. I flew across the ocean with my best friend and visited two countries on a completely different continent from my own. Beautiful England and lively Ireland. I would definitely say this trip was the highlight of my 2017. I got to meet my best online friend Emily after years and years, and we spent a few days with her at her quaint little flat in London. The culture and vibe in both London and Dublin was intoxicating, I can see why they’re such favourable tourist destinations. I can’t wait to go back, preferably with my partner in tow. He’d absolutely love Ireland, especially since so much of our ancestry originated there.

My year was filled with lessons and some I learned and some I undoubtedly missed. New year’s day was the first Full Moon of the year and it was also a super moon (at one point it had a rainbow around it). I went to my cousin’s to spend the evening reflecting on our past year together. We burned candles, incense, and smudged sage. We did a Year ahead Tarot spread each, we did tea readings, we discussed our goals moving into the new year. We made little brooms with bells and anointed the gifts we exchanged by smudging them, rubbing them with Frankincense oil, and putting them in the full super moon. She made a herb blend to burn while focusing her intent on the year ahead while I made an oil blend. Then in true “us” fashion we snuggled up in bed and laughed at memes. Here are a few photos from our night!

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Finally, my “resolutions”. I’m on day 2 of not smoking in the new year, it’s an ambitious goal but I really want to quit and I hope if I really really want to quit, that will be enough to keep me away from it.

Besides that I just wish to learn as much as possible in the new year. Be more positive, work on my skills and hobbies, and indulge in the things I enjoy.

Happy New Year everyone!

 

The Scribbler lives!

So it’s been a hot minute since I’ve really updated my blog, minus a few random ramblings here and there and if I’m being honest, I really miss blogging! I’ve had a pretty crazy year so far and I have so much to fill everyone in on but I’m going to do it in bits and pieces because it’s going to take some time. Off the top of my head I can tell you I went to Europe, my kids are growing and doing all kinds of cool and funny shit, I went back on medication for my ADHD for the first time since I was like 17-18, I was diagnosed with a gross thing called Endometriosis, I mean this year has been something else!

The most important thing is I’m back and I renewed my domain with a new fresh name! I was going by The Super Scribbler under the domain katlynblair.com because thescribbler.ca was unavailable back then. LOW AND BEHOLD! It’s available now, I snagged it, it’s miiiiine.

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Welcome to the new and improved blog, hold onto your panties ya’ll, I’m back!