Soulmates

This morning I got up to get a drink of water and then head back to bed. On my way to the kitchen I noticed my husband had bought me a coffee for when I woke up, little things like that remind me of how kind he truly is. I went to lay back in bed and couldn’t fall back asleep because I was thinking about how far we had come in the nearly 10 years we’ve been together. When I met him, I strongly felt I was jaded. I had been through short fling after short fling, and even my “serious” relationships had never lasted longer than 6-8 months. I was young but I was also scared. I remember laying in bed at night thinking there was something wrong with me because I always ended perfectly fine relationships. I was constantly chasing the high of a new relationship, once the spark went out, I ran. By 18 years old, I felt like a seasoned relationship escapist. I had friends in High School who I knew would marry the guy they had been dating since middle school. Meanwhile I thought I’d never be with someone long enough or trust someone enough, to get married at all.

The handful of times I could see a future with someone, they let me down in big ways. It really changed the way I viewed relationships and certainly contributed to the hurt I caused others who came after. In a seemingly normal relationship, I’d run at the first sign of trouble. I didn’t know how to love and maybe in some way thought I didn’t deserve it.

Dan came along when I had sworn off relationships, fresh out of yet another heartbreak. How he broke down those walls with such ease still remains a mystery to me. We met at a party at his brother’s house and we connected immediately. Despite my efforts to never see him again, I somehow found myself making room in my heart for him at any opportunity given. Things moved fast between us, unlike anything I have ever experienced. I loved him right away. When we found out I was pregnant I was terrified but I never for a second believed I was alone. He could have ran, he could have forfeited any and all responsibility, but instead he stayed and we fell deeper in love.

If someone had told me when things went sour with my ex, that my next relationship would wind up in marriage, I would have scoffed. By that point I truly believed I was meant to be alone and didn’t deserve to share my life with someone. It’s been almost 10 years, we have 3 beautiful children. I can’t say it has been perfect, but that has been mostly due to me, my old ways, and my old fears. Despite my efforts to sabotage myself, he has stuck by my side unlike anyone from my past and I realize now that my past relationships had to fall apart, for this one to fall into place.

DIY: All Natural Wax Melts

So after my adventures with lip balm I was left with a giant brick of beeswax and not a whole lot to do with it. I was itching to use it and had just run out of melts for my warmer and it just dawned on me that I could easily make my own. So I did! These are fantastic for personal use or as a gift for a loved one. You can personalize them to your liking using whatever scents you prefer.

It’s easy as pie and only requires 3 ingredients and minimal tools.

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Ingredients:
– Pure beeswax
– Coconut Oil
– Essential Oils

Tools:
– An empty wax melt mold or a silicone mold
– A microwave safe dish
– A funnel or spout measuring cup for clean pouring

Measurements:
– 1/4 cup of beeswax pellets or grated beeswax
– 2 tbsp of coconut oil
– 20-30 drops of essential oil
Instructions:
1. Combine 1/4 cup of beeswax pellets or grated beeswax with 2 table spoons of coconut oil in your microwave safe bowl.

2. Pop them in the microwave and melt them on 10-20 second intervals, checking repeatedly to ensure it’s melted.

3. Once your mixture is completely melted, add in 20-30 drops of the essential oil of your choice. I used Lavender for my test batch and it smelled fantastic!

4. Gently stir the mixture and then pour into the mold.
5. Carefully tap the mold on the counter/table to release any air pockets

6. Allow it to cool, you can do this at room temperature or in the fridge for faster cooling

7. Once they’ve completely hardened, pop them out of the mold and voila!

You can store this in a cute mason jar or container but be sure to store them in a cool, dry, place. 

When you visit our home..

I WROTE THIS A YEAR AGO?! My how time has flown and how nothing has changed. If anything my house is even more chaotic now that Paisley is mobile. 😀

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When you open up the door to our home, you’ll likely have to give a little extra shove to get it open. That’s because the doorway is a plethora of shoes for every season, just kicked off in a hurry as we got home. After being away all day or for the night, nothing feels better than coming home.

Once you step inside, if you look straight ahead there’s a wall with a painted picture on a slab of wood that says “Home Sweet Home” with a little red cottage on it, and a sweet home it truly is. To your left you’ll see a fairly vacant hallway, vacant aside from the little white and green potty that sits directly across from the bathroom. We’re potty training a toddler, so forgive us if it seems a little bit of an odd place for a potty. Down that hall you will also…

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When you visit our home..

When you open up the door to our home, you’ll likely have to give a little extra shove to get it open. That’s because the doorway is a plethora of shoes for every season, just kicked off in a hurry as we got home. After being away all day or for the night, nothing feels better than coming home.

Once you step inside, if you look straight ahead there’s a wall with a painted picture on a slab of wood that says “Home Sweet Home” with a little red cottage on it, and a sweet home it truly is. To your left you’ll see a fairly vacant hallway, vacant aside from the little white and green potty that sits directly across from the bathroom. We’re potty training a toddler, so forgive us if it seems a little bit of an odd place for a potty. Down that hall you will also find three bedrooms. The boys’, The nursery, and ours. This is where we sleep, it is comfort epitomized. You may stumble upon the bathroom on your hallway travels as well. It’s very small, very cramped, but it’s ours. Home to countless bubble baths filled with shriekingly happy children, or exhausted Mom, or Dad, who just got in from a run.

If you backtrack down the hall you will find yourself in an open concept dining room and living room, with a kitchen barely separated. You might trip over a toy or two as you enter into our living space. Where countless hours are spent playing with toys, watching cartoons, playing video games, rocking babies, writing blogs, and laughing with one another. In the dining room you will probably trip over toys too! This is where we sit at the table and fill our bellies with the food that provides us energy for our days of play. In the kitchen, you will almost definitely see a counter absolutely riddled with empty coffee cups. You’d think that’s because we need the caffeine to cope with the chaos that is our life, but actually I think we just thoroughly enjoy a good cup of Coffee from Tim Horton’s. The sink is probably full of dishes because frankly, we’d rather spend time with each other, doing things that make us happy, then sit miserable over a sink washing dishes. Though eventually my husband will give in and do them about once a day. If you try make your way from the kitchen to the basement, I will stop you. That’s the point of no return. If you go down there, you may get lost and never find your way back!

If you visit us, and you tour our home. You might judge by the shoes barricading the door, or the potty in the hall, or the toys scattered carelessly around the house, or the coffee cups sprinkled about the kitchen. You might think we are lazy and don’t bother to tidy up after our children. But our home is lived in. We have three children and to them, to us, this is our nest, our sanctuary, and we adore it.