Hey ya’ll! I got a notification saying it was my 5 year wordpress.com anniversary and it reminded me that I hadn’t blogged in a while.
I’ve honestly been pretty busy trying to keep my shit together. My holidays were amazing! I slept in almost every day, I didn’t know what day of the month it was let alone what day of the year, I wore pyjamas all day almost every day, I became one with the couch, I ate cheese and crackers way more times than I care to admit, I got asked if I was pregnant. “Nope, just fat” I replied, not even surprised. She is 6, so I let it slide.
I think the highlight of my break is that I quit smoking. I have 1 week and 4 days in and I’ve been keeping a daily journal just to jot down my symptoms, feelings, thoughts. I’ve found it easier than in the past though, I guess because I’m really ready this time. However, my journal would tell a different story lol I struggled with horrible withdrawal symptoms in the beginning so my journal is basically me whining every day about how awful it is. Even though at the time I was using the patch, I didn’t get any sleep, I was nauseated, cranky, and sweaty all the time. I’m not sure if it was a hormonal thing or withdrawal thing or a disgusting and inconvenient combination of both.
Since I ran out of the patch, I’ve been using regular gum and sometimes Nicorette. Usually regular gum unless I’m having a bad craving. When it’s the physical stim of holding a cigarette that I miss, I just grab a pen, pencil, paintbrush, or some other writing/art tool, and start doodling. I’ve drawn the alphabet multiple times in various styles. I’ve also painted the alphabet multiple times in various styles as well lol Somehow it helps.
I find the only symptom I am left with now is fatigue. I’ve been out of my medication for ADHD for a while and need my prescription renewed, so that might be part of it. But I am so flipping tired ALL THE TIME. I love sleep, I could sleep all day if I was allowed. Even as I’m writing this, it’s only 9AM, I am on my second coffee and I can barely keep my eyes open. So with that being said, I’m going to finish this coffee and snag a nap while I can still get away with it. Wish me luck!