Biting the bullet

Since the last time I updated this blog so much has happened. As far as my ADHD goes, it’s been extremely tough, to say the least. I have been struggling to manage it on my own, all my apps and resources slowly began to go unused, I sold my FitBit, and I sank into a […]

via Biting the bullet — Chatty Katie

I wrote up a new article on Chatty Katie! I debated posting it here instead but in the name of organization I went ahead and put it where it belongs and shared it here instead. Hope this helps anyone else struggling with ADHD and debating going on medication!

A letter to my past.

Dearest little Katlyn,

I know you feel alienated because you have ADHD. You’ve been excluded, humiliated, and patronized by some of your own Teachers because you’re considered a “problem” or a “disruption”. You’re not a disruption, you’re just different. You don’t need to change who you are for them to be able to teach, they need to change the way they teach for you to be able to learn. Teachers are always going to put you in a tiny box with a bunch of other kids who are nothing like you and they are going to expect you to conform. I’m here to tell you that you will try to conform many times over your school years and you will fail. The reason you fail isn’t because there’s something tragically wrong with you like you will tell yourself as you lay awake at night, you will fail because you’re not meant to conform, you’re just different and you learn in a different way. 

I want you to know that fitting in and having boyfriends is not as important as you think it is. Being socially accepted by your peers is not important right now. You don’t need to treat people badly to make yourself feel better, stop that, okay? It doesn’t make you look cool, it makes you a bully. There’s a reason you feel bad afterwards, that’s because it’s wrong and I’m telling you now, it’s going to happen to you and it will be the hardest thing you’ll ever go through.

Which brings me to my third plea, please don’t let people walk on you, Katlyn. It doesn’t have to be an “if you can’t beat ’em join ’em” situation. If people treat you badly stop giving them the time of day, your time is valuable and so are you. Don’t waste it on people who couldn’t give two shits about you. You will not still be friends with them in 5 years, trust me on that. 

You also don’t need to try drugs, I’ll just go ahead and let you know it’s not that great. Dodge that bullet. Experience isn’t everything! 

Lastly, if all else fails because you’ll never read this and you’ll do literally everything I said not to, you can rest easy knowing that your life will turn out amazing. You’re going to grow up quickly because you’re going to suddenly be super responsible for someone really important but I won’t say who! But you are going to be strong, beautiful, and kind. You’re going to learn from all the things you did wrong and you’re going to accept that you will never fit the mold and you’re going to grow to love that about yourself. You’ll realize there are people in your life who love that about you as well. 

Ps. Eyebrows=good. Shaving them=BAD 

P.s.s. Leave your hair alone.

Peace out Sailor scout!

Future Katlyn