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Hi everyone! I’ve been pretty absent lately due to a plethora of crappy excuses I won’t bore you with but mostly health reasons. These health issues have taken such a toll on my mental health that I’ve allowed myself to be a lazy piece of trash for a whole month. So I gained 10lbs. It’s the most weight I’ve ever weighed in my life and I really want to work it off. I’ve already quit smoking back in December and that was supposed to be the first step towards my health goals and it ended up being the only step so far lol

I’ve heard people talking here and there about something called the Keto Diet. I’m intrigued. The concept is that you eat a high calorie, low carb diet that puts your body into ketosis, causing you to lose weight in a healthy way. I’m still learning about it myself but for some basic info to those who have never heard of it, I’ve been using this website as a beginner’s guide.

I really just wanted to post and update you all on what’s been going on with me but I hope in mentioning this, anyone with experience could reach out and give me some valuable advice. All advice is welcome as long as it’s constructive! Miss you, WordPress Community! Also, here’s a cute Chibi of me and my cat Soup, thanks to an awesome artist on deviantart.

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A Gif Story: Injury Edition

AHHHHH! Story time, I’m sitting here listening to The Last Podcast on The Left and felt like I should post something here and it’s been one hell of a week already so here we goooo!
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I was extremely sick a few days ago out of no where. Puking, fever, cold sweats, it was nasty and I felt disgusting. I didn’t want to show my face in public and spent the worst of it in my bed binge watching shows on Netflix in between bathroom trips to throw up everything I attempted to eat. I also couldn’t sleep because my body was in such agony, so I was mentally AND physically exhausted.
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The day after it passed I was feeling like a million bucks in comparison to the day before, so I was on the ball and getting my shit done around the house.  I was crushing it!

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I was walking into my spare room to light some incense, drop some essential oil into my burner, and pick out a book. I had just finished cleaning the house and was 100% ready to zen the fuck out.
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As I stepped through the doorway something happened, something we all dread, something inevitable, something that has happened to the best and worst of us.
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My baby toe stubbed on the door frame! However, not only did it stub, it straight up CAUGHT on the door frame and the entirety of the rest of my body continued moving forward. Inertia 101 guys, objects in motion stay in motion, unless unbalanced forces interfere, my unbalanced force was that god damn baby toe catching on the door frame.
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I face-planted onto the floor and spent the next 5 minutes writhing, still on the floor, in pain. I was pretty sure I heard something crack in my foot.
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So yeah, it swelled up almost immediately. By that night it was black and blue across the top of my foot, leading from that toe. By the next day it was a worse looking mangled mess.
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I can’t walk on it, so I’m limping. I can’t put my boots on so I haven’t left the house. I am going crazy ya’ll!!
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But on the plus side, I have 2 weeks and 2 days in since I quit smoking.
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I’m okay.. really..

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I quit smoking!

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Hey ya’ll! I got a notification saying it was my 5 year wordpress.com anniversary and it reminded me that I hadn’t blogged in a while.

I’ve honestly been pretty busy trying to keep my shit together. My holidays were amazing! I slept in almost every day, I didn’t know what day of the month it was let alone what day of the year, I wore pyjamas all day almost every day, I became one with the couch, I ate cheese and crackers way more times than I care to admit, I got asked if I was pregnant. “Nope, just fat” I replied, not even surprised. She is 6, so I let it slide.

I think the highlight of my break is that I quit smoking. I have 1 week and 4 days in and I’ve been keeping a daily journal just to jot down my symptoms, feelings, thoughts. I’ve found it easier than in the past though, I guess because I’m really ready this time. However, my journal would tell a different story lol I struggled with horrible withdrawal symptoms in the beginning so my journal is basically me whining every day about how awful it is. Even though at the time I was using the patch, I didn’t get any sleep, I was nauseated, cranky, and sweaty all the time. I’m not sure if it was a hormonal thing or withdrawal thing or a disgusting and inconvenient combination of both.

Since I ran out of the patch, I’ve been using regular gum and sometimes Nicorette. Usually regular gum unless I’m having a bad craving. When it’s the physical stim of holding a cigarette that I miss, I just grab a pen, pencil, paintbrush, or some other writing/art tool, and start doodling. I’ve drawn the alphabet multiple times in various styles. I’ve also painted the alphabet multiple times in various styles as well lol Somehow it helps.

I find the only symptom I am left with now is fatigue. I’ve been out of my medication for ADHD for a while and need my prescription renewed, so that might be part of it. But I am so flipping tired ALL THE TIME. I love sleep, I could sleep all day if I was allowed. Even as I’m writing this, it’s only 9AM, I am on my second coffee and I can barely keep my eyes open. So with that being said, I’m going to finish this coffee and snag a nap while I can still get away with it. Wish me luck!

Come at me 2018!

Well folks, another year has come and gone and I can’t say I’m sad to see it go. When I reflect on 2017 there’s little I recall fondly. My personal life wasn’t terrible but the world as a whole was hurting and as an empath, I spent a lot of my time feeling sad on the behalf of others. I did get to experience some personal growth and challenged myself to do new and intimidating things. I did so with success. I flew across the ocean with my best friend and visited two countries on a completely different continent from my own. Beautiful England and lively Ireland. I would definitely say this trip was the highlight of my 2017. I got to meet my best online friend Emily after years and years, and we spent a few days with her at her quaint little flat in London. The culture and vibe in both London and Dublin was intoxicating, I can see why they’re such favourable tourist destinations. I can’t wait to go back, preferably with my partner in tow. He’d absolutely love Ireland, especially since so much of our ancestry originated there.

My year was filled with lessons and some I learned and some I undoubtedly missed. New year’s day was the first Full Moon of the year and it was also a super moon (at one point it had a rainbow around it). I went to my cousin’s to spend the evening reflecting on our past year together. We burned candles, incense, and smudged sage. We did a Year ahead Tarot spread each, we did tea readings, we discussed our goals moving into the new year. We made little brooms with bells and anointed the gifts we exchanged by smudging them, rubbing them with Frankincense oil, and putting them in the full super moon. She made a herb blend to burn while focusing her intent on the year ahead while I made an oil blend. Then in true “us” fashion we snuggled up in bed and laughed at memes. Here are a few photos from our night!

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Finally, my “resolutions”. I’m on day 2 of not smoking in the new year, it’s an ambitious goal but I really want to quit and I hope if I really really want to quit, that will be enough to keep me away from it.

Besides that I just wish to learn as much as possible in the new year. Be more positive, work on my skills and hobbies, and indulge in the things I enjoy.

Happy New Year everyone!

 

DIY: All Natural Wax Melts

So after my adventures with lip balm I was left with a giant brick of beeswax and not a whole lot to do with it. I was itching to use it and had just run out of melts for my warmer and it just dawned on me that I could easily make my own. So I did! These are fantastic for personal use or as a gift for a loved one. You can personalize them to your liking using whatever scents you prefer.

It’s easy as pie and only requires 3 ingredients and minimal tools.

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Ingredients:
– Pure beeswax
– Coconut Oil
– Essential Oils

Tools:
– An empty wax melt mold or a silicone mold
– A microwave safe dish
– A funnel or spout measuring cup for clean pouring

Measurements:
– 1/4 cup of beeswax pellets or grated beeswax
– 2 tbsp of coconut oil
– 20-30 drops of essential oil
Instructions:
1. Combine 1/4 cup of beeswax pellets or grated beeswax with 2 table spoons of coconut oil in your microwave safe bowl.

2. Pop them in the microwave and melt them on 10-20 second intervals, checking repeatedly to ensure it’s melted.

3. Once your mixture is completely melted, add in 20-30 drops of the essential oil of your choice. I used Lavender for my test batch and it smelled fantastic!

4. Gently stir the mixture and then pour into the mold.
5. Carefully tap the mold on the counter/table to release any air pockets

6. Allow it to cool, you can do this at room temperature or in the fridge for faster cooling

7. Once they’ve completely hardened, pop them out of the mold and voila!

You can store this in a cute mason jar or container but be sure to store them in a cool, dry, place. 

Geocaching and enjoying nature!

Lately it’s been getting really bitter and cold out with Winter approaching. I struggle with my mental health during the colder months and tend to isolate myself because being inside and being warm feels a lot better than being cold and miserable. We’ve had some days that reached around 3C but most days are below 0 now. It’s been really difficult for me already and it’s only going to get colder. Today was weird, I stepped outside and it was 12C!! Usually we only get this warmth when it’s raining and there’s not a lot we can do in the rain, but the sun was shining. My husband took the kids out to play ball hockey in the driveway while I poked around in the woods behind our house. Eventually we decided the weather was too nice to stay home and we packed the kids into the jeep to head to the Wetlands Nature Trails for some fresh air and nature therapy!

As soon as we hit the trail we noticed a tiny painted stone sitting near one of the wood carvings. I told my husband I had heard about people putting these painted rocks around town for people to find and we agreed it was a really neat concept, like a massive easter egg hunt. It reminded me of Geocaching, which has a similar concept, if you haven’t heard of Geocaching, pleeeeease do yourself a solid and check out Geocaching.com! So yeah, we decided to see if any Geocaches were hidden in the area while we were there and sure enough there was one listed further in the trail, so we punched it into the GPS and made our way there. Along the way we noticed more of these painted rocks, the kids were going crazy for them, keeping points for each one they found, admiring them for a minute, and then putting them back for others to enjoy.

We had to go into the woods off the trail to find the Geocache but luckily it was an easy find and I spotted it just as hubby walked past. It was tucked inside a cute old tree stump and was in really good condition! Hopefully this cache will be around for a few good years. We left something and took a small homemade heart. Then we set out to finish the trail. By the end of our walk we had found at least thirty or more of these painted stones, it was an absolutely fantastic day!

DIY: Pressed Leaf Clay Bowls

Another fun activity I did over the weekend, it was a first time experience for me but I will definitely be working with clay moving forward! I bought Natural Modelling Clay at the dollar store, two bricks for $1.50 each. This was MORE than enough, I brought both bricks to my best friend’s and we were both able to make tons of fun creations and still had almost an entire brick left over. She made a really nice Moon Phase chime and a teepee incense burner, I made my leaf bowl, an Awen pendant, and a tiny skull for shits and giggles.

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You can make literally whatever you want, but here is how I made the leaf bowl!

What you need:
– Natural Modelling Clay
– A sizeable leaf to press
– A knife
– Plastic Wrap
– A bowl
– Acrylic Paint
– A rolling pin (Or wine bottle)

Step One:
– Knead your clay until it’s soft and pallable
– Roll it out flat until it’s your desired thickness
– Take your leaf and press it down onto your clay
– Run over it with the rolling pin until it’s definitely imprinted on the clay
– Gently peel your leaf off your clay
– Using your knife, cut out the outside shape of the leaf like the image below
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Step Two:
– Gently lift your clay leaf off the surface, be careful not to smush it!
– Place plastic wrap in a bowl and then place the clay leaf in the bowl so the leaf has a rounded bowl shape as shown below

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Step Three:
– Allow 24hours for your clay creations to dry and harden

Step Four:
– Paint! You can paint these however you like, I do not recommend using water in your paints as it could cause the clay to smudge
– You may choose to use a clear coat, you can use Krylon clear coat spray or even clear nail varnish. This is completely optional.

Step Five:
– Enjoy your new creation, use it for holding herbs, jewellery, or stack them up by size for a decorative piece!